He actually seemed chastised that I felt bad for him. When the area we were in became crowded, I suggested we talk in my dad’s van which I brought to the venue. So we spent the next half hour talking about ourselves – him sharing his parent’s pressure on him to excel at school, and I sharing my experiences when I was his age.
My biggest issue in life prior to today, was that I was alone.
I’ve never been in a relationship with either a girl or a boy.
Eventhough I’ve known I was gay since I was watching Speed Racer (the cartoons) when I was a kid, I knew that I was going to be a bit traditional when it comes to my (future) relationships – that I won’t have sex on the first date, monogamy, a commitment ceremony (instead of a wedding), 2.5 kids (adopted or via surrogate), and a dog.
So tonight was a shock for me, because somehow in a single date I managed to destroy my belief system. I was on sick leave today, recovering from a bad asthma attack the previous day. Aside from TV, my only distraction was logging on to a gay social network’s chatroom application. So it was with a surprise that Gabby (not his real name), an 18 year old kid who’s in the same city as I, was very persistent in meeting me.
So I went to the meeting place, met him and saw a tall (taller than my 5’7″), bigger (arms and torso more built than mine) and good looking kid. He didn’t look 14 at all, he was like a boy in a man’s body.